Kirsty Taylor
Autopilot
Updated: Apr 30, 2020
Laughing in the distance,
A tear drips down my eye
Drip, drop, drip
Her twinkling smile flashes before my eyes,
As someone turns and says
‘Laughter is the best medicine’.
I can’t bare to hear this line.
To avoid her smile in my eyes,

Her laughter in my ears, and the drip, drop of my tears.
I fill my diary to the brim.
Ten minutes for lunch there,
A spin class here,
A coffee there,
A dinner there,
A run there,
As the daylight ends, and the moon sets in,

I dream of ways to avoid my bed.
My head whirls and spins,
My heart aches and my body cries.
A girl on autopilot arrives the next morning,
With the same smile and laugh she had coined the day before.
A girl who has loved and lost,
Is alone in her mind and lost in her heart.
Autopilot can’t stay on forever, she’ll return.
- Words by Kirsty Taylor and Photography by Cecilia Volpi.